"Beautiful tragic love affair"

I'm the same girl he fell in love with last year but sadly he has outgrown me. He realized that I'm unstable and insecure, maybe he realized that before we were together and accepted that. In my head it was never over but every time I turn to my side he isn't there. The only thing next to me is a tiny bear which he gave me the 14th of August, 2014. This was our first official day as a couple. I don't cry that often, but when I start to I feel that it's a never ending void I can't fill. This knot inside is slowly eating through me, I'm so nervous I can't even feel my stomach anymore. I moved to the United States about seven months ago and decided to do long distance but in my mind I didn't think it would work. I don't know why I got so afraid. I should have taken the chance, now all I think about is what if? And that is possibly the worst feeling anyone should experience. He has the biggest heart and he is live definition of "a needle in a hay stack". I'm in that point where I actually hope he finds a girl that puts his broken heart back together and loves him like I did. I truly hope him happiness and to live a hell of a great life with me or without me. One thing is certain, if we are meant to be we will see each other again and I'm sure we will. Don’t be afraid to love and don’t take for granted the love you have, because you never know when it might end. 

For: Taylor Swift (Has anyone ever wrote you a song?)

I wrote this because I realized that the guy who broke Taylor Swift's heart has too many songs. I wrote this because I wanted to point out how valuable you are, Taylor, for all of us, all the people who admire you. 

This is a very simple rhyme but completely honest! So I encourage any Swiftie to get inspired and write a song or a poem for her! 

My Saturday night was unusual, 

Out of the ordinary, even delusional

This came to me, like a wave and breeze, 

I just stud there to freeze

This was the first night i saw you

You passed by me like a bright shining queen, 

A breathtaking scene,

The happiest I've ever been.

Taylor you light up the sky

When we're with you I swear we can fly!

We sing with you and dance with you

In every way, we're here to say

Chorus:

Has anyone wrote you a song?

Its seems like it’s been too long

Since someone smiled at truly who you are

Turned her pain into music and talent

And danced all night in the rain

I fell in your voice

This song came with no sign or choice

I never rhyme but this came by surprise

Trust me and look in my eyes

***

I look for you up in the stars

My angel told me you're not far so

I call out to you and ask you to listen

This one's for you, and not for the boy who broke your heart (he has too many songs)

I want you to know, I speak from the heart, 

Don't let it show but we've been next to you since the start

The dream that your living, you share it with all

Your fairytale singing, just the beginning and if you ever feel down, 

Don’t dare to frown, we'll pick you up if you fall...

Chorus: 

Has anyone wrote you a song?

Its seems like it’s been too long

Since someone smiled at truly who you are

Turned her pain into music and talent

And danced all night in the rain

I fell in your voice

This song came with no sign or choice

I never rhyme but this came by surprise

Trust me and look in my eyes

 ***

Has anyone wrote you a song before?

Its seems like it's been too long ago

You write us your fears and we're here for your tears, just turn around

Taylor, this one’s for you, so feel your heart beating, 

The rush you are feeling is our love and our singing

Now you can say you have a song

"Money Makes the World Go Round"

We have been told that through the abundance of money and power a person can achieve true happiness, this might be a disappointment because it isn’t true. Why does it seem that each day that goes by the world is driven more and more by greed and ambition? In life there are so many things that can’t be labelled with price. “Even if a man has everything – money, power, the key to eternal life – he is still nothing without a family to love him and for him to love”, (Latrivia S. Nelson).

Every person has a different pursuit of happiness and success, it is relative within each human being. Success can be measured in many different scales. One of my personal aspirations is to become a Journalist and an Economics major. As the years pass, my financial objective is to be stable and be able to produce sufficient income to sustain a family. Nevertheless, being successful comes from your own knowledge, education and love. This is what directs us to open our minds and eyes towards a better future and sharing half of your heart with another person. Being passionate about what you enjoy doing will always lead to open doors in the financial world and as a human being. Money changes people and what they stand for. Having an excessive amount of money or wanting to have, can lead to a never ending creation of addiction and greed. Don’t let your obsessions ruin the opportunity to live through this short life we have.

My thoughts on this topic is recognizing the importance between what you want and what you need and finding this balance is extremely important. "Happiness is not in the mere possession of money; it lies in the joy of achievement, in the thrill of creative effort”, (Franklin D. Roosevelt). It is true that money is essential for our bare necessities and our day to day living but in the end do people remember you for what you had or who you are? Money doesn’t bring you great memories or fills your soul with warm-hearted feelings. We come to see that the wonderful things that convey happiness come for free and are conceived within ourselves. 

Joe Biden: Combatting Sexual Assault

I held my Orange pride really high today after listening to one of the most important men in the country give a speech. Joe Biden, the Vice President of the United States, came to SU to talk a about Violence and Sexual Assaults on College Campuses. Biden is incredibly passionate about this topic not because someone in his family has been a victim but for the fact that his father was such an honorable man. He explained how his father taught him to respect women and never to raise a hand towards them. The tone of voice he used varied in perfect synchrony and all of the students standing right in front of him were completely engaged with every word he spoke. 1 in 5 women is likely to be a victim of sexual assault before they finish college. This is something our community can change if we consciously make a cultural change in the decisions we make. "Look at these women as your mother, as your sister, your teammate, step in and expose them, save them!"

Joe Biden graduated from Syracuse University in the year 1968 and he couldn't have been happier coming back "home". He was received with an auditorium full of students, in which some had been victims of sexual assault, many professors and our big pride, the marching band.  Seeing him stand up for this problem was encouraging, because I felt the pain these women and men have suffered and have been through. It’s a topic people are afraid to speak about because one can be judged or mistreated. Biden’s Campaign “It’s On Us” is creating awareness among college students and a safe place where victims can be heard and their voice can be heard. Never blame yourself because it is NEVER your fault. Be courageous, be bold, and be brave because you have an amazing community supporting you. Biden’s speech was flawless and incredibly motivating. I hope his message spreads throughout the United States to successfully decrease these terrible percentages of violence against women and men.

#ItsOnUs

Essence of Beauty

Beauty is becoming the fear of so many young women. Why is society and social media imposing standards of beauty that are beyond what is really considered beautiful? We don't need to feed a shadow that haunts us every time we see ourselves in the mirror. The name I gave this blog recently is "Kalon". The definition of this word is simple, "beauty that is more than skin-deep, the ideal of physical and moral beauty". I chose this name for many reasons. It seems that each day that passes inside beauty is forgotten. We seem to eat less, dress tighter and spend so much time reflecting an image that doesn't represent us. But think of this, when was the last time you asked yourself, am I beautiful? Look in the mirror and answer the first thing that comes to your mind. I've seen so many women that answer "No" and this crushes me. Being beautiful is putting a smile on your face every day even if something is troubling you. Being beautiful is waking up each morning and looking messy after a good night sleep. Being beautiful is believing you are absolutely flawless inside and out. I can’t imagine a homogeneous world. Our differences, our culture, our background is what defines us and makes us unique. “Kalon” is beauty beyond what we know, beauty beyond words. This is what you are, beautiful.  

"America" by Imagine Dragons

The guitar starts to play a quiet melody that can be compared to skipping stones on a stagnant river.  Then a soft beat climbs in the melody similar to a heartbeat making the pace a little faster. After a few notes a man’s voice starts to sing in a low key, soft and relaxing, “Is this just an illusion”? His name is Dan Reynolds, the lead vocalist in this song. Reynolds is a famous singer, composer and forms part of the band Imagine Dragons. The song I chose as a national anthem is called “America”, different to what I normally listen to but relatable to how I view this country.

It has a flowing beat, similar to hearing the ocean recede slowly. In the background one can hear a keyboard filling a void that only a piano can fill. “Believe in you”, our country has suffered through strong downfalls throughout history but always managing to find a way to rise again and again; “Rise to the top of the world, America”. By this point the beat starts to get stronger and faster adding a perfect rhythmical sense to the lyrics. The band proceeds to speak and give a voice to important citizens that sometimes are overlooked within the community. “From farmers in the fields…for all the ones that gave until they died”, for all the people that contribute to the growth and stabilization of this country.

I think this is an ideal song because it is simple and portrays the main aspects of how I view the United States. It’s a place that one can call home, a place to find a dream, “and I feel you close”. Sometimes we find ourselves falling but with time we come back rising to the top, “America, don’t you cry, lift me up”. The last instrument that takes place in this song gracefully makes an appearance in the chorus. The xylophone enters in the harmony as if a person would melodically fall down the stairs.  Lastly, the song ends repeating the chorus and mixing the drums, guitar, xylophone and Reynolds voice.

(The objective of this assignment was to pick a new National Anthem and describe the song through words so one can listen to the music without hearing the song).

Four Thousand Miles

The distance is killing me because if I had you close I wouldn't let you go ever again. Being away from you is feeding on my heart. I miss you even if you think otherwise, all the things about you. You are my everything but I keep this to myself so you don't suffer in silence. I know the distance is anxiously growing on you too. I want you to know that close or far you are still in my heart and I can't let you go. Don't forget to remind me of all the times you loved me because this void is infinite. I'm beginning to forget what it was like to be in your arms, I look for your warmth among others but it's never you. I close my eyes hoping to see your reflection but it’s never you. Maybe one day I'll come back into your heart and be as we always were. 

Four thousand fucking miles away and I still can't seem to get over your smile, your laugh, the way you look at things and make them seem better. I really can't stop thinking about you. Don't ever forget what we had because it was that type of love you live and have once in a lifetime. Don’t ever settle for less.

Why do you want to be a Journalist?

Roller Coasters seem to be scarier than they appear. Fast, majestic, perfectly planned and hopefully flawless. The uncertainty of not knowing what to expect unless you dare to get on it. The initial sway is slow because of the strength needed to move the amount of people the ride carries. Through constant effort a small incline begins to tilt (us). Successfully moving higher, nevertheless going steady. What are we experiencing? Excitement and fear to reach a breathtaking climax. It drops, loses control and the fear turns into a war between adrenaline and screaming, trying to make our voice loud enough for someone to hear. After this point the direction this ride is headed is completely unknown; twisting, turning, reaching so high, and dropping so quickly that ending face first on the ground seems like a plausible option. It’s ending, slowly going back to where it began. How many tickets do I have left? I have to go on again! 

Journalism is scarier than it appears. Precise, tedious, mesmerizing and diverse. Slowly swayed by the people and the arrow of communication it implies. Through constant effort mass media and the overwhelming connection it creates throughout the world, it spreads news among an astonishing amount of different countries. Success! Steady incline in charts, views and publications, going higher and higher. What am I experiencing? Excitement, fear, am i doing everything as I'm supposed to? Where is the climax? Am I going towards the right direction? These questions make me nervous. I'm losing my mind, I'm screaming but no one can hear me. That's what journalism is about, finding your voice, being loud enough to be heard and knowing that the direction you are going may be completely wrong. It's about taking chances and being bold, there is absolutely nothing to lose (except your job). It's about enjoying the words you construct and assemble together. Is the ride over? I have to go on again!

Fortune Cookie Realization

"It matters not what road we take but rather what we become on the journey". The wise words of a fortune cookie from my Chinese delivery today.  I have always worried about what will happen in a near future, where I will go and how everything I do might affect how people think of me. I wish I could have realized sooner that nothing could matter less. We are so busy living in the past or in the future that we forget all that is in front of us. Like going for a walk, looking around yourself and actually enjoying even the simplest moment.

I have realized that life is so short, at least for me each day that goes by is passing faster and faster. The only answer is... Don't ever stop loving, caring, smiling, and doing things that truly make you happy and who you are. Go outside, breath fresh air and just smile and be grateful for everything you have. Don't ever stop doing something that others think is strange. If that would have been my case, I'd be going crazy, more than I already am. Notice everything around, "there is never nothing going on". Be there for people who need a help in hand, open your heart, don't be afraid to love, open your eyes, look at the beauty in front of your eyes. Enjoy every step you take because that is what defines the journey you will take throughout the upcoming years. 

Purpose vs. Passion

Everyone wants to find their purpose in life. What are we here for? Are we headed in the right direction? We constantly look for answers when we don't necessarily ask questions on our everyday actions. Think deeply, what would you do all the time and never get tired of? Our purpose is what we came here to do and our passion is what drives us to become better on a daily basis. I created this page as an escape within a reality. Somewhere I can turn to when I feel lost. I recently began my freshman year in college and it's definitely an experience I can't take for granted even if I'm drowning in work!

I began reflecting on myself these past weeks. I want to learn more about who I am and who I want to become. Curiosity is what moves ideas into projects. Being curious is creating an opening for new experiences and opportunities. In my opinion, the world needs a little crazier, a little more love and little more thinking outside the box. Let's make our contribution towards leaving our footprint, don't you dare pretend being someone you're not. Show who you dream of becoming and when you find it don't turn back. 

"The meaning of life is to find your gift. The purpose of life is to give it away." - Pablo Picasso