I'm the same girl he fell in love with
last year but sadly he has outgrown me. He realized that I'm unstable and
insecure, maybe he realized that before we were together and accepted that. In
my head it was never over but every time I turn to my side he isn't there. The
only thing next to me is a tiny bear which he gave me the 14th of August, 2014.
This was our first official day as a couple. I don't cry that often, but when I
start to I feel that it's a never ending void I can't fill. This knot inside is
slowly eating through me, I'm so nervous I can't even feel my stomach anymore.
I moved to the United States about seven months ago and decided to do long
distance but in my mind I didn't think it would work. I don't know why I got so
afraid. I should have taken the chance, now all I think about is what if? And
that is possibly the worst feeling anyone should experience. He has the biggest
heart and he is live definition of "a needle in a hay stack". I'm in
that point where I actually hope he finds a girl that puts his broken heart
back together and loves him like I did. I truly hope him happiness and to live
a hell of a great life with me or without me. One thing is certain, if we are
meant to be we will see each other again and I'm sure we will. Don’t
be afraid to love and don’t take for granted the love you have, because you
never know when it might end.
